Have you ever been in a room for many hours and to view it as an escape from the reality of the outside world? Have you spent many hours writing, reading, drawing, or even listening to music or watching television? Have you ever felt safe enough to play out your fantasies alone in your room without being ridiculed by the families or friends?
Well, I was that individual who has spent many hours writing, drawing, or even reading. I sometimes watch the television. All of those activities do involve anything related to science-fiction. There are very few music selections that I have deemed futuristic enough to think of science fiction.
I have begun this life as a loner very early in childhood even though my childhood was somewhat normal despite my hearing and visual impairments along with the undiagnosed Asperger’s Syndrome. I have not thought of myself as being “lonely” or “alone” as a person. I was not too interested in the male gender for many years.
Even in my teenaged years; I have further isolated myself due to the fact that I was molested by a former family member. So I have become a loner for a very long time probably started when I was about 4 years (or younger, I cannot recall).
My life as a loner was quite long, not only was it peaceful but also turbulent. As a loner, I was not very social and I was not too keen on social gatherings since I have often been left out of such activities. I have very few friends over the years.
Yes, I was able to gain enough information about manners, despite the fact that I was somewhat socially inept. I have trouble fitting in with the “in” crowd. I was often bullied by school-kids.
That is why I preferred to be alone in my space where I can let my imagination roam freely without anyone ridiculing me, or being downgraded for my “secular” or peculiar behaviors. I didn’t need any of the other’s ideals. I have my own, and I am breaking out of the stereotypical societal molds.
So here I am. I’m still a loner even though I use the computer to communicate with the people through the use of the social media such as Facebook, Twitter, Google+, and even Skype. I have begun to communicate with the people around the world in 1998. I began using the chat feature of the women’s ministry magazine’s website in 1999. That is where I begin to open up to people and share my thoughts with them. Yes, I felt more comfortable in this format rather than having to deal with the face-to-face situation. I am more shy in that realm. Some say that I have opened up a little more since I begin chatting.
Anyway; the rest is history. I have gone from the chat rooms to the social medias. But in real life, I am still a loner sitting in front of the computer writing this blog entry as I check my Twitter account. I did start the blog in 2007 with MySpace and Windows Live Spaces. I have since moved to Blogger which I’ve stopped using and decided to use WordPress to write my blogs.
Yes, I like sitting in a quiet room so that I can think up ideas and scenarios in my mind before writing them down. I’d get uncomfortable whenever anyone else are in the room with me, such as my husband. He would be in anohter room, and I would feel uncomfortable talking to myself since I do have my imaginary friends in my head, and they respond to me.
So this is about concludes my blog entry. Do take care and be efficient, everyone.